I took a break cuz it was summer. I'll update better but my friend is with me. I'll be putting up some work. Happy to be back and see my friends. ^__^

Okay, so this is my first day off and my only day off for a while. I decided to have a "Pastel Party" with my friend, Heather. This basically meant going over to her house, grabbing a lot of pastels, and attempting to draw. What ended up happening was the both of us felt we wanted to have someone join us. There's this boy (who I will call "fluffy") that was suspended (so we haven't seen him in a while) and we went over to where he was at.

There's this kid named Caleb. Fluffy and a bunch of other people were at his house. For a long time, there was a group of six people playing hackysack in a circle. I thought I did pretty good for my second attempt.

Anyways, at this house, the mom decided to let her kid pretty much have it. She moved out and Caleb lived there with my other two friends who moved in with him. (They were in arguments with their parents. They'll be staying at Caleb's for a while). The whole house smelled like pot and there was a group of people huddled in this one room on a mattress. The house was crazy. For one, Caleb had put a bow (like a bow and arrow) on the ceiling fan, so you had to watch out for that. There was a fridge sitting in the middle of the room...To add another unneeded fact, everyone was playing with newborn kittens. One of them had seven toes, like its mother.

Okay, so this house has no electricity. Around ten people were in the same room. Some were reading from a book with their phones. Another guy was playing the guitar...everyone with a cigarette in their hands...and then someone mentioned a ghost. Caleb and Fluffy were sharing stories about the ghost of a little girl named Elizabeth. The other people in the house had already seen her a couple times, so they joined in. Elizabeth was supposedly a little girl that moved like the chick from the grudge and she had a really fucked up face, like mangled. Fluffy said how one time she went from the ceiling, into the floor, crawled out of the floor, and into his lap (in the room we were sitting in). Fluffy and Heather went into the basement to see her. She said that she saw something down there before she lighted her bic. It was really fucked up. Caleb kept trying to get people to go in the basement with him. Everyone's like, oh hell no.

For the most part, I liked the environment. I loved the people and the fact that the electricity was out. Kindof brings people together. Especially when there's a fucking ghost living in the house. Caleb was hot. We created a massage chain, which was pretty cool. For music, I grabbed my headphones and cranked the CD player.

I didn't draw anything with the pastels.

I haven't updated in a while so I figured I would. This'll sound weird but I found out that after being here for so many years, this is practically another life being on DA. A place where I can go to talk to others about my life and get feedback, and not worry about being judged. Well, if I do get judged, its for the right reasons. Not because of the way I look or how weird my voice sounds and whatnot.

I've decided to quit smoking. I'm kindof excited to see how long I'll last. Not the best attitude when going through the process, but knowing that I'll probably slip up and that I wouldn't really mind sets me at ease. Whenever I try continuously at anything I'm bad at, its usually what I become best at. I learned that from band, drawing, and biology class. xD

Since I've last posted a journal, I've cleaned my room to the immaculate state. Took me four hours to sort through all my drawings, books, pens, makeup, whatever. And now its trashed. I'll clean it in another three months or so...lol. That's why I hate cleaning my room, because when I do, I go all out and it takes me hours to do. After I finished cleaning my room, I even began cleaning the house because I just couldn't stop. I might do that today. Believe it or not, I love cleaning. That's why I love doing my job. I like everything looking perfect. I totally beat my record at cleaning pots and pans yesterday. I was ecstatic. (K-T, I finished at 6! xD)

Two days ago, I bought a sweet pair of Etnes on sale and neat-o chain that I wear on my pants. I also rented Fable for X-box and have been playing that. For those of you who have an X-box, I recommend the game. Its one of my favorites.

Lol. I definitely went on a strict diet for about a week and celebrated by eating three Snicker bars at once whenever I decided that I didn't want to be on one anymore. xD (Fucking periods)

Hope everyone that's on break or on vacation is enjoying the Easter thing. Its been an ugly day every day so far. Raining all the time. I've been walking everywhere out of boredom while its pouring...Its cold, but I just love the fact that it isn't SNOWING. I hate snow so much.

I've been having the worst dreams lately. About the Revelations in the bible. I wake up thinking its a continuation of the dream, so I would check to make sure my whole family is in the house. I can't believe how much its gotten to me. I'm not joking, I am terrified and I wish Ethan was in town because last time this happened, he gave me something to laugh about it. He didn't just avoid it, or like other Christian's do, is say "Go to church" or something fucked up like that. To show how much I appreciated him I made this huge analogy of him in prismacolor with our conversation included. I titled it "hardhats and meteors". He found out about a scientific theory of how a meteor was going to strike earth in the next five years. By that time, he stated that we'll both be of drinking age. We would drive out to the country, and have a drinking party with hardhats on for when the meteor comes. Lol, I really love this kid.

Okay...I'm cleaning my room. I'm so happy that I'm doing it willingly...I might finish it in another 3 hours. AFTER that I'll be finishing up on CH 10 Kaulitzxest...yayz. I've just been getting a lot of input and help from meh buddies. Specially' who's just amazing with coming up with ideas. My other friend, tries...but she doesn't wanna influence me when it comes to writing. x3 dat's okay.

I"M SO FUCKING BORED>xx0sxasovfi8seuf9g8wre4tf34t430ru3094e823fvsd

It's like, noon and I'm drinking 'Full Throttle' for the hell of it. I can't go out of the house cuz of all the sleet. I would have to walk like a penguin...what the hell? I'll go out anyways! (after I clean...of course...) I am, honest to god, probably the laziest person you will ever meet...but I just can't sit still for over an hour. I end up jumping all over the place, screaming phrases in Japanese and German (cuss words of course. ironic how I can't cuss in English at home, but I can in other languages even when my parents know what I'm saying). Lol, ever since I saw Tokio Hotel with Slink, I've been screaming "Wo ist der sheisshause?!" everywhere I go. "Toire wa doko desu ka?!" xDDD@@@@

TACOTACOMELIKEYTACO
AT work, we totally had taco salads and I've been doing silly voices while serving. Besides the fact that I enjoy calling the green beans "GEEN BEAN" and the tomatos "to-mah-toe", I do a damn good job at serving. Not really. I steal so much of the food there....tiz making me FAT.

I gotz meh nails done again...black with white tips. My friends love it when I get my nails done cuz I scratchez everyone's back.

can you tell I'm procrastinating?

AWAY I GO TO LISTEN TO THE AMAZING GACKT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rebirth
mars
diablos
loveletter
gacktgacktgackt

Stole this from , who stole it from .
I put my MP on shuffle and listed the 30 songs that came up. ( I actually had a few rap songs come up, but had no idea what the band was or the name of the song. )



1) Hurray for the Moon - One Moment >in my pants<

2) Despairs Ray- (Track 14? xD) >in my pants<

3) Paramore- All We Know >in my pants<

4) Wolf's Rain <in my pants>

5) Dir en Grey (Marrow of Bone~?) >in my pants<

6) TM Revolution (?) <in my pants>

7) Psycho le Cemu- Akueria >in my pants<

8) D-Low- I'm That Type of Girl >in my pants<

9) L.M.C.- little Man Fat boy <in my pants>

10) Paramore- Never Let This Go >in my pants<

12) System of a Down- Needles >in my pants>

13) L'Arc-en-Ciel- REVELATION <in my pants<

14) Dir en Grey- (Withering to Death~?) >in my pants<

15) L'Arc-en- Ciel- Spirit Dreams Inside >in my pants<

16) Nightwish- (Some Irish Song) <in my pants>

17) Kelly Clarkson- Never Again >are you getting in my pants<

18) Dir en Grey- (Withering to Death?) <in my pants>

19) Flyleaf- All Around Me <in my pants>

20) L'Arc-en-Ciel- Time Goes On <in my pants>

21) Panic! At the Disco- There's A Good Reason TheseTables are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought of it Yet <in my pants>

22) Cascada- (Track 2?) >in my pants<

23) L.M.C.- No. 9 >in my pants<

24) Panic! At the Disco- Nails For Breakfast, Tacks for Snacks >in my pants<

25) Psycho le Cemu- Syunkasyuutou >in my pants<

26) Dir en Grey- (Macarabe~?) >in my pants<

27) L.M.C.- Yellow Beauty >in my pants<

28) Tokio Hotel- Sacred <in my pants>

29) Paramore- Whoa < its in my pants>

30) Wolf's Rain <in my pants>